I hate speaking about my feelings
to people. They'll just tell me 'calm down, everything's gonna be okay' .. But
hell no. Things just get worse. Honestly, I'm really in trouble now. I
really dont need pain now. I don't want to feel anything anymore. Yes. I'm
fatigued of always being there for people, but guess what they do? They just
disappoint me. I want to feel numb again, I
really miss waking in the morning with a big smile, having my morning coffee
calmly. And just worry about NOTHING.But at this same point, so much to think
about. I'm so so so so tired :( Oh God, whatever test you giving me now, I hope
it's worth to think about.
*Take me
away my imaginary friends, from this cruel world, cruel people.
Please
take me far far far away and keep me safe.
